it’s just a dream

“You know, i keep having that dream. We’re back in the hotel room in L.A and you’re asking me to marry you. And every time i have that dream, everytime you ask me, I say “Yes!”"

“But it’s only a dream.”

“Yeah, well, its my dream”

-Peyton & Lucas, One Tree Hill

I dreamt about you last night. It made me miss you a little, but it’s only a dream.

on ANOTHER note,

I WANNA BE A PHOTOGRAPHER!!! =)

seriously.

but for now, it’s only a dream.

10,000 stones

by Adrianne

My days are filled with mistakes
Some that I didn’t make
I carry them around

Some people don’t feel a thing
Some kind of blissful dream
I wish that I could live that now
Oh, I wish I could live that now

‘Cause ten thousand stones
Hanging deep in my heart
No, I don’t know
How they don’t tear me apart
How could I ever believe
That ten thousand stones
Would build the best of me

I’ve seen a lot in my life
I’ve seen two wrongs make a right
When everything was crashing

I know that you’ve got your plans
You’re always taking your stand
But I was only asking
No, I was never asking

For ten thousand stones
Hanging deep in my heart
No, I don’t know
How they don’t tear me apart
How could I ever believe
That ten thousand stones
Would build the best of me

Yeah

Oh, who knows
What you think of me now
Knowing sooner or later
The truth would come out
But I don’t want to look back
Don’t want to look back

To ten thousand stones
Hanging deep in my heart
No, I don’t know
How they don’t tear me apart
How could I ever believe
That ten thousand stones
Would save the fool in me

Ten thousand stones
Would be a strange blessing
Ten thousand stones
Would build the best of me

a thousand miles

“sometimes, poeple write things they cant say” -Haley, One Tree Hill

…if i could fall, into the sky, do you think time, would pass us by, cause you know i’d walk a thousand miles, if i could just see you, if i could just, hold you, tonight…

That song came to mind today. like out of nowhere, i just started singing it, and I thought of you.

i thought of that night,  came so slowly, gone too soon. i rmembered that darn long walk. gosh, i was so tired but i did it for you. did you know that?  it’s like that Nickelback song that goes, ‘i’d come for you, no one, but you, yeah, i’d come for you, but only if you told me to..‘ I remember singing that to you too. I dont remember the roads or the direction clearly now. But it was worth it, in the end, sitting on sidewalks, watchin planes fly by, looking at you grin that grin that makes your dimples so obvious. It was worth it, i must say.

“This is a night I’d remember forever”, and then you put your strong arms around me.

Would i go that far for anyone else?

How far would i really have gone for you? I guess now we’ll never know.

…you know,it gets so sad when it all goes bad, and all you think about is all the fun you had, and all those sorry(s) ain’t ever gonna mean a thing…

whatamigonnadonowthatshe’sgone

Unforgettable, that’s what you are, unforgettable, though near or far…

Wadudu.

“shhh. Don’t say a word, just feel the moment.” I do, and I feel pain.

I remember you with the short hair, parted at the middle, I barely knew you then, never spoke to you, didn’t think I’d be writing this out to you.

Then somewhere in the year 2007, sitting in the row behind me in class, I don’t know how, and I can’t remember when or why I went and sat next to you, and we started doodling on the pages of our school magazine. Laughing, and drawing on the faces of teachers, students, people we didn’t really like, people we thought looked funny, people we made look funnier, I remember the way we laughed. Oh, gosh. Somehow, we grew closer and I thank God for such an amazing, amazing friend and sister, He has decided to bless me with.

In Form 4, I remember the way you’d doodle on the tables in class, how that habit of doodling rubbed off on me,  I remember scaring couples and the women walking in the back lane of Parkson, we’d whistle and throw stuff out the window, I know, how mature.  I remember, mocking you and being mocked back, I remember you being there for me, listening to me whine about men and telling me, “Just leave him LAH!” if only I listened, ey?

And then we grew even closer and in Form 5, sitting next to you, ah, those were days were I knew class was going to be fun just because you were there. You always knew when to be there and listen, when to just sit beside me and not say a word, when to raise your voice and drill some sense in my head, when to make a joke out of a situation, when to speak. My very own sanity pill.

You introduced me to good music, good movies, so many good things. I remember, in Form 5, we were much braver, much more mischievous, we stole out of class, doodled during lessons, mocked teachers, ate in class when sze meng wasn’t watching *ehee*, you and your many talents in music, ‘bacon and eggs’, your love for nasi lemak, and us taking pictures in the science lab I remember dreading those days when you were away for a tournament or had something on. -_- ugh. I remember your many expressions and how I bring them on in live even now!

I remember when I got the job and when you guys came to visit. You and your loud-ness! HAHAHAHA. You keep me laughing all the time! thank you for all the rides and yum cha moments! Thank you for every single moment of being in my life. Your honesty, brutal honesty, its just so hard to find someone like you.  you are gorgeous inside out and I pray you know that.

So you’re leaving and I pray, that your life be filled with adventures, great days, and even when bad days strike, I pray you’ll learn from them, but know that wherever you are, you can, and I know you will, go out there and be great. And no matter what happens, you’ll always have someone here for you.

Don’t forget to remember me. 

p/s: FIND ME A HOT BOD AUSSIE GUY! *woot* LOVE YOU EVERYDAY. Don’t lose your dudu-ness!

*BIG BIG HUGS*

KANTOI

BY zee avi =)

Semalam I call you, you tak answer.
You kata you keluar pergi dinner.
You kata you keluar dengan kawan you.
But when I called Tommy he said it wasn’t true.

So I guess that’s the end of our story.
Akhir kata she accepted his apology.
Tapi last last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too.
With her ex boyfriend’s best friend - Tommy

CHECK HER MUSIC OUT, PEOPLE! MUST MUST MUST! =)

prodigal

Woke up this morning

Without the slightest idea

That today would be the day

You’d set me free

I was waiting

For an answer

For it to be over

To make it all right

Then You whispered softly

Showed me what love’s supposed to be

Yeah, I loved, I lost it all,

But with You,

I walk tall.

You. You loved me first.

its amazing how much You love me. lately i get reminded so much of it, and i want to make a promise to You that i’ll never walk away again no matter how things turn out for me. No matter how hard it gets. i’m really so so tired of walking away and coming back each time things go wrong. 

Today, i want to return for good. to You.

and i pray, so hard, that when the wrong things strike my way, i wont choose them. honestly, i cant be sure i wont walk away again. and inside, i’m so afraid i will. when days get lonely, and life gets tough, hold my hand, like You promised you would. i will try my very best, not to let go.

i’m writing this out here, so the world would know, i love You.

So, God, help me.

he’s black, he’s white, he’s dead

“touched  some kids birdie or not, he’s a legend.”

Okay. So I never thought I’d be blogging bout this, but due to the rising demand that I do (blog about the dead and gone MJ) I shall now give my thoughts on this.

Actually I don’t have much thought on this.

AND.

There is no rising demand. Saje lah I gatal. ehee.

Anyway, I first heard the news when I got into the car to go into coll that morn and I was like “oh. Wow the kids must be rejoicing around the world” okay, so I did not actually say that. It just didn’t like affect me in any way. Yeah I was surprised for like 5 seconds and then “OHMYGOSH! HAVE YOU HEARD THAT MY NEIGHBOURS POOCH GAVE BIRTH TO A LITTER OF PUPPIES, AGAIN!!!”

Anyhoo, he’s dead. Okay. Passed away. No, I have nothing against men who get accused of touching kids birdie or anywhere wrong at all. Nothing big deal at all, ey? Especially you have sucha HUGE influence on HALF THE WORLD. No big deal.  Sure, he makes, wait, MADE, good music, but hello!!! The man’s gone. Yeah, splash his face across the papers for a day and get over it already! Kids are suffering in Africa (oh.wait.most of them are rejoicing. ANYHOO.)  there are more important things to deal with. Come on, the guy’s dead, leave him to rest in peace. Gosh.  And you wanna make a HUGE hoo-haa only AFTER he’s gone. Wow, how suprising.

“Look MJ, you’re all over the papers! Oh wait, you’re dead.”

Okay, so his family members are mourning over their loss, sorry Mr. Father of MJ for your loss.

You can say whatever you want about this, but as for me,

Legend of not, he (MOST PROBABLY) touched some kids’ birdie.

But then again, he’s dead, I mean, passed away, so what’s the big deal, right???

cracks in the crystal ball

6 words were spoken

In that short moment        

It was all it took

To change it all

5 days before

If you told me about it

I wouldn’t believe you

I would have said no

4 days later

I heard on the phone

The sound of her voice

As the tears came down

3 hours ago

I thought I was fine

I thought it’d be okay

But I was wrong

2 minutes more

I say to myself

Then I’ll be alright

It was a lie

1 more try

Just once more

Don’t leave it like this

Don’t leave.

EVERYTHING.

it’s been a month since i’ve moved down to kl.

i still miss home.

i’m feeling really really bored now.

i like PURPLE.

i want a funny, hot boyfriend.

i still miss you

momma called and i got to speak to dad and GOSH.the moment i heard his voice i totally broke down.

its not that i dont miss my mom but i just realise how much i spend bonding with my mom, wanting to make it up to her, back when i was in ipoh, i think i sorta pushed my dad aside. and i’m his baby girl. i want to always be. maybe i’m afraid of losing that ’status’ he has given me. he even calls me ’sweetie pie’ . AHAHHA.sweet-ness =)

i wanted to tell you that i miss you so much,dad, but the tears got in the way.

sorry lah. aku memang emotional giler. =) but i like it this way.